Scripture for Today: Psalm 139:23 “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.”

I wish there were some other way to check one’s cholesterol levels than a blood test. They are never fun and neither is the fasting beforehand. The waiting room experience usually increases my anxiety. The nurse asks me which arm I prefer. Neither, really. I make the required fist and try to remember those relaxing techniques. Surely it was something about breathing. I know not to look. Is this really necessary? Can’t I just promise to lay off the ice cream? 

Today’s verse is about another test which is also a voluntary one. This test involves one’s heart, motivation and thoughts. The One who does the testing is infinitely more patient, tender and loving than any health professional. He goes deeper than any needle can reach and reveals what cannot be seen. He not only reveals potential problems but He is there to lovingly deal with them.

Just as blood testing is not a comfortable experience, so this heart examination can be uncomfortable for me. Seeing my failings and imperfections can burst my self-satisfied bubble and leave me vulnerable. When He searches my heart He may find remnants of bitterness and lack of forgiveness, thought to be already resolved. He sees those anxious thoughts that may signal my lack of faith. But when He brings these things to light, He offers full and complete pardon. The heart no longer feels heavy but light with forgiveness and reassurance!

Search me today Lord, and make my heart healthy with Your loving care.