I am a city girl so I am proud of myself if I can even identify what is growing in that passing field as wheat! And the whole process of turning that wheat into something edible seems involved to me, from the threshing and winnowing to the milling. But none of this happens until a seed gives up its life and is buried in the soil.
Today’s verse uses the kernel of wheat as an image of what an unselfish giving life can produce. Jesus is predicting His own death and challenging the disciples to be willing to lose their lives (verse 24). The one who loves his own life and lives only for himself will not experience the honor promised to those who serve Him (verse 26). Even though His soul was troubled (verse 27) Jesus was resolute to sacrifice His life as payment for sin.
My soul is troubled too with this thought. Unlike Jesus, I am selfish to the core and grasp tightly my rights, dreams and desires. Living for Him is fine in theory as long as it does not interfere with what I want! Surrendering to Him my goals, my time and everything I own is what dying to self may mean. I am to be a “living sacrifice” (Romans 12:1-2) and I struggle with this every day. However, it is the only way to make my life really count. There is so much truth in what C.T. Studd wrote, “Only one life will soon be past. Only what’s done for Christ will last.”
Lord, help me to live for You and not myself.